Memories of Her Brilliance (In A Sea of Gray #6)

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Shouldn’t you have warned me?

That falling in love with you

Meant cementing my heart to yours

Without my own volition, as if I didn’t have a choice


And now you wonder how come

As you fight to move forward, I still haven’t run

How could you not see

That no matter how far you lead, in your hands my heart would still be


Stuck in a constant struggle of waking up without you

I find it beyond comprehension

Why in losing you, I lost myself too

Because part of letting you go

Is letting go of the person I was when I fell in love with you


And I liked her

I liked how she loved you with so much passion to burn the world

How she smiled and laughed in your presence

Carelessly, effortlessly, she was able to just be


I yearn for how she felt alive looking into your eyes

How she felt safe and cared for wrapped in your arms


And now that you’re gone, I have none but memories of her brilliance

How she shone and sparked under your touch

Something I could never bring back

For you’re nowhere, and I am but an empty shell as such.

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4 comments

  1. amusingwright · · Reply

    This is beautiful – I can relate so much. When I was with her (in my case), I was happy, I was constantly bubbling with excitement and joy. In her absence, gone is the ‘brilliance’. Hollow. Previously, the meaning of life didn’t matter much because there was someone IN your life. Funny how that questions starts to haunt the husk of self…

    In conclusion, though, I appreciate your work a lot 🙂

    1. Oh wow, thanks so much. That was a beautiful way of putting things as well. Kinda brought me back to that hollow state I was in when I wrote this. Sigh. But I do hope that all is well with you 🙂

      1. amusingwright · ·

        I am okay enough to be of sound mind. At least, I am under the impression that I am. ^_~ this will pass. I know it will. In the meantime I’m using some the emotions to relate to others, and to capture some thoughts, ideas, moments. So, things aren’t that bad! I did like the way you described some of the feelings in your work, though.

      2. Thanks so much! That really means a lot to me. And if it helps, I’m still going through “it” myself. I know it’ll pass too, I’m just not there yet. Hehe. I’m also looking forward to your posts! 🙂

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